REFLECTIVE JOURNALS

Having too many things to do can easily distracts my focus. What am I going to do now and then almost remains no time for me to enjoy myself. Where's me? Watching motherhood advises me that happiness for moms is when they're stopping their time and watch kids grow and see the time goes by quickly. Well....really I know why Muhammad s.a.w the prophet teaches kids should obey their moms three times more than their dads. Moms are created to sacrifice all they have for their family members to pursue happiness for all. Me as a mom have collective focus, not only my career, but also my kids education, health, and family welfare. Please Lord, Alloh swt help me to live my life happily ever after. Amin.

Heart is really like a sea wave, up and down, wild and calm, and color changeful. Human's power relies on his heart, that's why it's called as a king. King rules leg to move or stop, brain to create or cheat, hand to give or beg, eyes to see or ignore, mouth to praise or condemn. Nothing is impossible for the king. However, the king cannot leave alone, he needs touch, money, and power. Their absence might trigger storm on the sea, so that the wave become wild and tsunami. To remain calm and rainbow like color, the presence of God inside the King is a must.

Doing a good deed is somewhat sacrifice yourself for other people. Life is a matter of choice, to be a good man or bad man. Once you decide to be the good, never regret it whenever you face your opposition. Being a good people is hard, you need to grow your patience and toughness in your heart to take after your decision.

Life is about how to manage the mess. We feel happy if all we need is fulfilled, and it is very easy for us to be unhappy and grumpy whenever one of our wishes doesn't come true. Then when we're disappointed, blaming another people on the failure is something that is cheaply done, without any intention to do any reflection on ourselves. If a failure is the life mess, I think we can stay happy whenever it comes as long as we change our point of view of the mess as God's challenge for our betterment. Thinking about the mess will lead to a stress, but when the new point of view is applied, it transforms the suffering feeling to a beautiful stress. Like a butterfly life cycle, from an ugly look caterpillar change to a loveably gorgeous creature. The mess leads us to the higher life class, insaallah.